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[Apr. 29th, 2008|02:23 pm] |
Alright. So I think most of you already know.
I'm just not open about it.
Since I came out to my mom.
I guess now it's out in the open, yes, I have a girlfriend.
And I've never been happier.
We've been together for almost 5 months.
I don't really care what many people think or say about it because to me, it just shows that you're very close minded and a really small person.
This has been in my mind for the past 2 1/2- 3 years.
A lot of things have been missing. Yes, I was with Troy for so long, but in that time he and a few other people knew what I was feeling and how I was. I cared about Troy, yes. I always will, but it is nothing compared to now. I have found the missing links. Yes, boys can be cute, boys can be sweet, but when it comes down to it, I'm not all emotionally there, and sexually, i'm there half of the time.
I believe you're attracted to who you're attracted to, you like who you like, you fall in love with whoever you fall in love with it. And you can't help it.
I've had my fair share of "girl expeirences" and as well as guy.
Yes, it's wrong in the bible, but I'm not religious, so therefore it does not effect me. That is my belief.
These are my beliefs, so I will live by them, and pushing thoughts into my head with religious bullshit will just make me think how close minded you are.
Luckily, I have not had anyone say anything to me about it, but I know some think it. And that's good, keep it to yourself because it's not effecting your life.
It's supposanly wrong by a lot of people, it's a choice.
It's supposed to be a "wrong" choice.
But, to me, it's not a "wrong" choice if it effects my happiness.
And it's my choice.
It's my happiness.
Jessica is moving in with me in a few weeks for the summer. I'm really excited.
Next issue, as soon as most of my "friends" have found out, majority of ya'll have been really supported and not cared how i live my life, which is awesome. You've been there for me to vent to, and act no differently towards me just because I find girls attractive. I do not see girls as meat, I'm not into ass and titties. I don't look at every girl... I hardly look at them. So for all of you who think that, you're wrong. If i thought anything of you, you would know it. I don't run around with gay pride stickers, i don't flaunt it like i'm better than anyone. I just see it as a small peice of me, that plenty of people have over looked and should continue to, because i'm the same person.
But there are a few of ya'll who i've noticed have slowly backed away, pretty dumb if you ask me, some of which have been my small groups of friends, i only stay in contact with one or 2 of you, pretty sad
I've never crushed on any friends... So if you think I have, trust me, I haven't.
Anyways, most of you know already and have known. I'm just officially putting it out there. So there are none of those "is she really?" "I heard..." anymore.
I'm really happy.
Oh and Brandy, if you read this, I'm not flaunting this.. So I will tell Dad whenever he comes back into our lives. And Matt and Cooper don't need to know at this moment in time. Let me do this on my own time, not yours. It'd be much appreciated.
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